Why don't you stop hacking my phone and promoting crime?
The video that you stole from my hacked phone in which someone was saying "You're forcing it" was of a male security officer being overly aggressive toward a woman. The person who was saying "You're forcing it" was talking to the security officer.
That's a picture from today of the first part of Amy Schumer's Twitter.
Part of what abusers count on is the silence and humiliation of their victims, and the victims' fear of being judged and ridiculed for talking about the abuse.
One of the things that the conglomerate most likes to do is to mimic what it has seen me do in the voyeuristic, SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me. It wants to tell everyone "Look at what Lena did," and put the focus on what I was videotaped doing instead of the awareness that what has happened to me is a horrific and sickening crime THAT WILL NEVER GO AWAY, THAT I WILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND THAT WIlL OUTLIVE ME NO MATTER HOW OLD I AM WHEN I DIE. Like all abusers, the conglomerate wants to take the narrative of what has happened away from the victims.
I don't like talking about what I was videotaped doing; however, what I'm trying to do when I talk about it is to change the perspective of the narrative so that the narrative is "This is how I was violated when I was supposed to have privacy," instead of continuing to be the dehumanized target of bullying.
What Ms. Schumer's Twitter profile picture is referring to is voyeuristic video that was filmed of me with hidden cameras in the shower of the homeless shelter called the Bristol Lodge in Waltham, Massachusetts in 2012. By then, the conglomerate had been torturting me for a year about the videos of me in the shower that were voyeuristically and illegally filmed with hidden cameras in the shower of the homeless shelter called the Good Samaritan Haven in Barre, VT in 2011. When I left the Vermont State Hospital after 4 consecutive months of being a patient there from 2010 to 2011, I went to the shelter in Barre because I did not want to go back to Burlington and because that shelter happened to have a female bed vacancy when I called. I was at the Vermont State Hospital for twice as long as I would have been if I had agreed to be discharged back to the Burlington area; they like to send patients back to where they were from. I called a lot of shelters before that one agreed to take me.
When I left Vermont in the summer of 2011 after being at the shelter for a few months, I went to Boston. It was after that when I started to see what seemed to be more and more references by the conglomerate media to what I did in the shower a few times a week. I confronted the conglomerate online, asking at a written blog "Is there naked video of me to which I never consented?"
The conglomerate exploded into vicious, lewd, mirthful hysteria, screaming that I'd asked for it, that I deserved it, and encouraging it to happen to me over and over, which it did.
That also means that it happened to everyone who was a client everywhere that I was illegally filmed; that the conglomerate has created hundreds of victims of voyeurism and probably involuntary, Internet pornography from among the homeless, the clients at psychiatric facilities and people at gyms who have paid for gym memberships is also something that the conglomerate has tried to ignore and excuse.
The video to which Ms. Schumer is specifically referring is video that was filmed of me in a bathroom where I had turned the lights off, hoping not to be filmed if there were illegal cameras. Cameras probably need less light to record images than people need to see; I guess it wasn't as dark as I hoped it was in the shower at Bristol Lodge. In the videos of me at the Good Samaritan Haven, when I didn't know that I was being videotaped and NEVER WOULD HAVE CONSENTED IF I HAD KNOWN, I was videotaped masturbating with two hands. Trying to avoid being victimized again, I masturbated with one hand sometimes, never with two, in the shower at the Bristol Lodge. I used the other hand to wash conditioner out of my hair.
The conglomerate thinks that's really funny. Although it never stops accusing me of wanting to be victimized by voyeurism and involuntary pornography, it also thinks that my attempts not to be victimized are HYSTERICALLY funny.
Most shelters have time limits for how long clients can be in the shower, because there are far more guests than bathrooms. At the Pine Street Inn, you get 10 minutes. I think that the time limit at the Bristol Lodge was half an hour; that means that you get a total of half an hour in the bathroom by yourself when you want to take a shower. It doesn't mean that you can take a shower for half an hour. When I realized, from conglomerate references, that I was being videotaped in the shower, I bought shorts and a tank top and wore those to shower, in the dark. Every night at the Pine Street Inn, I put on shorts and a tank top, cold and wet from the night before; putting them on and taking them off usually takes about half of my 10 minutes. I almost never have time to wash my hair in the shower; I do that in the sink to save time. I put the wet clothes on under the robe and scrubs that the Pine Street Inn gives clients to sleep in and then take off the robe and scrubs; then, after the shower, I put the scrubs and robe on over the wet clothes and take off the wet clothes. If there are cameras in those showers, the conglomerate has video of me putting on those wet, cold clothes every night, even in the winter, and it just doesn't care. Because the shower room at the Pine Street Inn is one room with separate stalls, I can't turn the lights off to shower.
I am barred from the Bristol Lodge. Even if I wanted to stay there again, taking every precaution that I could not to be victimized more than can't be avoided, I couldn't. I was there for three months; it's a place where you get a three-month stay at a time if you can get in by calling every day at the same time to ask if there's a vacancy. I was harassed at that shelter the way that I've been harassed at every shelter since 2011 including the Good Samaritan Haven; coughing, lying, all of it. I was also harassed and stalked in Waltham every day of those three months. The Bristol Lodge decided to deal with the situation by calling me crazy; it demanded to know what my mental health diagnosis was. When I initially refused to tell them, they said I could never be a guest there again. They didn't change that decision even when I did tell them; they were vicious. The conglomerate is vicious and causes vicious behavior.
I'm sure that the staff at the Bristol Lodge knew that I wasn't delusional; who hid the cameras in the bathrooms if not staffpeople? There was even one night when one of the staffpeople pounded on the locked door of the bathroom where I was taking a shower in the dark and yelled at me through the door that I had to turn the lights on, that I was breaking the rules by showering in the dark. I yelled "You can't make me turn the lights on," and I didn't.
Probably, there are stalkers in vehicles circling every building that I'm ever in, around the clock, because the conglomerate has told the world that it's fun and heroic to stalk me. The stalkers are probably one of the reasons that shelters would rather not have me as a guest.
That's another picture from today of part of Ms. Schumer's Twitter.
I don't think she's funny.
Copyright L. Kochman, December 15, 2015 @ 1:51 p.m./additions @ 2:59 p.m.
