What did I write tonight that offended Justin Bieber? I wore overalls yesterday; he has a picture at his Instagram where he's wearing overalls that was posted after I had left my apartment.
Did I interpret the picture incorrectly? Was it an "I support the nice, somewhat elderly lady who's wearing overalls today," picture and I didn't realize it?
I much prefer that interpretation, and I hope I didn't embarrass him by trying to be nice about the interpretation that I did make.
Early middle age is a time of transition. I know what I look like, and I know who wouldn't be age-appropriate for me even if they weren't rich, famous, and evil; sometimes I don't know if everyone does know that. If I clarify unnecessarily, it's not meant to upset anyone for any reason.
Sometimes, I have assumed that people couldn't be attracted to me, and then they get upset because they feel that I haven't been sensitive to their feelings.
Really, what ought to be happening is that men don't degrade women for being female, no matter what the conflict is.
I'm not trying to create a continuous online interaction with Justin Bieber or anyone else. What I need to do is get out and try to meet people; I am sadly phone-dependent. It's also a cycle; the conglomerate has eviscerated my ability to meet people in a normal way, and I'm stymied by that, so I sit in my apartment and use the Internet when I feel alone and am sick of studying or dealing with my other problems. Then I get more problems.
It's a lot, what's happened to my life.
Copyright L. Kochman, May 14, 2016 @ 2:54 a.m.
