These are messages that people have sent to one of my past YouTube blogs, "Lena Kochman Boston," since yesterday:
"Lena Kochman Boston" is one of my past blogs. I haven't published videos at that blog for over a year. However, it is one of the first results for a Google search of my name, which is probably why people write to it.
Most of the search results for my name at the first few pages are hate blogs that people have published about me. Last year, I tried to get several of them removed from the Internet; the hosting websites refused to remove them, saying that they had no responsibility for what people published.
My search results are one of the reasons that I am dependent on a government agency to help me get work; no employer is going to want to hire me after doing an Internet search of my name. If I do get a job by being sent there by the agency, I'm sure that there will be people at the job who will harass me and who will then say that I'm crazy if I object to being harassed, because they think it's funny and they don't care if I lose my job. That's what always happens. That's also what happened at school.
I have nothing to apologize for in terms of the videos that I filmed in which I confronted people who stalked me. I am alive. I wasn't raped or abducted or badly injured, even though I was homeless for 4 years. If people who stalked me got the message that I wouldn't be an easy target, then they got the right message. If other people who thought about stalking me got that message from seeing me yelling at stalkers, then they got the right message.
I continue to have stalkers whenever I leave my apartment. Eventually, someone will rape and kill me, and it will be the conglomerate's fault.
I don't want to be famous, and I don't need or want anyone to feel sorry for me. I want my rights to be respected.
Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, October 6, 2016 @ 1:41 p.m.
