This is good:
That's the address of a Tweet.
How am I going to talk about everything that has happened?
I think that I had seen one Justin Bieber video before this past summer. I don't think that I had even had my last apartment when I saw it; I think he was 18? I watched the one video, thought "Huh. He's way too young" and didn't watch another one until starting a few months ago. I also didn't know how much music of his had had something to do with me until a few months ago.
I don't really want to be the center of attention for any industry. People who think that I want to have people talking about me all the time, even if they like me, don't know how I feel. I know that publicity is such a part of the entertainment industry that a lot of people don't realize that I really don't want all of that attention. When I was about Justin Bieber's age, I thought about being an actor, but by the time that I was in my late twenties I didn't even want to be one anymore.
Most people who have heard of me probably don't realize that my contact with the entertainment industry really started from writing that I did, and had nothing to do with anything that is dependent on individual publicity for financial success. You can be a writer who is not famous and who is paid; I never had an aspiration to be The Wife Or Girlfriend Of A Famous Person For The Sake Of Dating A Famous Person. The conglomerate has really lied to the public about that, and has perpetuated every mercenary and promiscuous stereotype to propagate that lie.
I didn't want to argue with Mr. Bieber about every lyric of the music that he published during the past few months. I was hoping that the conglomerate's promotion of crime was subsiding enough so that there could be a transition to normality and the normal use of language.
Before last week, I also didn't want to argue about the videos that he has published over the past few months, for the same reason and also because I'm tired of arguing. People respect me and understand what I'm saying or they don't. If they don't, despite knowing what I think about things, then I have the choice of not closing distance with them.
Mr. Bieber is too young and too rich and too famous for me, and he would be those things even if there were nothing else about his life that concerned me. I don't think that I should be getting excoriated for saying that. I'm sorry if a misunderstanding was the cause of the format of the video that he and Mr. Snake? Mr. DJ Snake? have published, but I was very upset and I feel that they should have cared about how upset I was. I'm sorry that I got offensive; I was surprised and couldn't deal with it. I continue to think that the video is not good for me. I am not seeking fame, and being famous is going to increase the number of people who see the evidence of the crime of voyeurism that's been committed against me and for which I've been victim-blamed by the conglomerate.
Having at least partially played the role of older mentor for Mr. Bieber for the past few months, I don't think it would be appropriate for me to conduct business with him or his team at this time; that was already how I felt about it before this past week. Either a person means it when he or she says "I want nothing from you," or that person doesn't mean it, or doesn't follow through after his or her sincerity when saying that is tested by a positive response.
The video that was published last week is going to make my life more painful. I wouldn't say that I don't want to be famous if I wanted to be famous. Is it futile to ask again that it be discontinued?
Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, December 5, 2016 @ 9:31 p.m.
