I'm not saying that she does, because I don't know if she does. However, if she created "Haven Monahan" to try to get Ryan to like her, why would she tell Ryan, whom she wanted to date, that she had a disease that frequently makes people who have it less attractive if she doesn't really have that disease?
If she does have it, then isn't it probable that she was insecure about it, that her insecurity was something that was perceived by the people around her, and that her insecurity was something that made Ryan not want to date her, without knowing why she was insecure?
When an older adolescent goes to college, it is a time when most of the people around them are the healthiest that they'll ever be during their adult lives. Few people at that age know what it's like or know how to relate to people who have or who have had health problems, and anyone's chronic health problems are not something that most of them want to deal with. Whether those who are healthy have thought about their lack of interest in those who are less fortunate or not, those who are less fortunate are acutely, painfully aware of their lack of desirability by contrast to people who have no health problems.
If Jackie felt that she had to put a lot of effort into getting Ryan to like her, it doesn't seem that he minded the attention. He texted with "Haven Monahan" several times, and he didn't reject Jackie's purchase of concert and bus tickets for his birthday until after she was raped.
If "Haven Monahan" was a lie, it wasn't meant by Jackie to hurt anyone, and it doesn't mean that she wasn't raped by people to whom Drew lured her.
For years, celebrity men have subjected me to violating and humiliating treatment, from the way that they talk about me to chronic, criminal invasions of my privacy. I seem to be expected, by them and the rest of the conglomerate, to think that their behavior is flattering; even their brainwashed wives and girlfriends take out the misery of their unequal relationships on me instead of putting the blame on the misogynist, criminal lifestyle that they all have. Not only are those men not reprimanded by the conglomerate for their horrible behavior, the conglomerate feels sorry for them when I reject them, and they feel sorry for themselves and try to get revenge on me for their hurt feelings. They are supported by the conglomerate for that revenge, also, even though the conglomerate attacks me every day with more false accusations of trying to date one of those rich men or anyone else about whom the conglomerate thinks it can start and perpetuate a damaging rumor.
Nothing that those celebrities do to express their supposed feelings of love for me seems to be outlandish enough, according to the conglomerate, for criticism by the conglomerate, no matter how unhappy and even suicidal it makes me. I have never done anything to anyone like what their "love," which isn't love at all but is the worst type of condescending, controlling, emotional and social abuse, has caused to happen to me, and neither has Jackie.
Copyright L. Kochman, March 11, 2016 @ 7:23 p.m.
