Every other mention of them feels intrusive to me. I'd rather be left alone about all of it, but if you feel like you have to say something to me about it, please try to think about it the way that I do. What makes you think that I need or want to be made to think about it and about this burden that will last all my life; do you think that I don't have to try not to think about it all the time so that I don't kill myself?
It is a crime that will outlive me. That crime will live until the end of the world; more people will participate in it every day, just by watching the videos, for however many centuries the species survives. Nothing that I do or say will ever outweigh it.
I can't have children; they would be bullied all their lives and the conglomerate's deliberate, hateful, casual, viciously mirthful, sexual tarnishing of my reputation would shadow them and everyone they knew and everything that they ever tried to do.
There is nothing that the conglomerate wants more than to make the world believe that I am a nymphomaniac and therefore stupid, greedy, parasitic and deceitful. It has succeeded; every day, in every situation, I have to work against the public perception of me that the conglomerate has relentlessly manipulated for years.
Copyright L. Kochman, March 8, 2016 @ 2:41 p.m.
