This is an email from a lawyer at Cambridge and Somerville Legal Services, which is supposed to provide legal representation to people who can't pay lawyers. It is her response to an email that I wrote her last night, after the police were at my apartment. The police did not really look for the cameras before concluding that there are no cameras in the apartment.
I rescinded permission for her to talk to my psychiatrist after I went to Boston Medical Center on January 27, 2017 for a physical appointment and this happened:
Ms. Hegel has never spoken to the psychiatrist, but she had spent the entire meeting that I'd had with her talking to me as if I were delusional. I had written an organized letter describing what was happening at my apartment and left it at the CASLS office for her to read before our first meeting; she read the letter looking for a trigger event for what she thought to be my obvious psychosis, instead of reading it for its information about what was happening. At our meeting, she told me that she "didn't get an answer" from the letter about what might have triggered my delusion, and I told her "That's not surprising, since there wasn't one, and I'm not delusional. There are cameras in my apartment." She wanted to know what my diagnosis was. She wanted to know if I'm taking medication. She wanted copies of my medical records. She wanted to talk to my psychiatrist before she did anything else; it's fortunate for me that my psychiatrist was on vacation that week, or the lawyer would have been able to talk to the psychiatrist to tell her that I'm being evicted for my "delusion" that there are hidden, illegal cameras in my apartment, and everything would be even worse.
What Ms. Hegel had told me in her last email before this one was that she'd keep my case open for a month, so it's not as if my contacting her again was inappropriate.
I have since contacted my psychiatrist to ask that she call me so that we can talk about how Boston Medical Center is treating me before I return to that hospital. I didn't do anything to deserve to be treated that way.
She hasn't answered me.
My physical problem has continued. I am also almost out of the medication that I take to be able to sleep in my apartment, where there are hidden and illegal cameras in every room and that get illegal video of me 24 hours a day. When I am out of that medication, I can't sleep and I vomit until all that's left in my stomach is bile, and then I vomit that. It's a very difficult medication to taper off, and I won't even be able to taper it off if I can't talk to someone in the next few days and get a prescription. It is not a narcotic or an addictive medication. The dose that I've been taking is what the doctor had prescribed for me for the past year; I was trying to taper off of it with a lower dose for months before the property management told me that I was being evicted, and then I started averaging 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night, so I went back to the original dose and am now almost out. Sometimes I only get 4 or 5 hours of sleep anyway, because of how bad the stress of what's happening to me is.
It is obvious that all of the people who watch me at my apartment either don't care if I am evicted for asking that the cameras be removed from the apartment, or are gloating that I'll be evicted. If that weren't how they felt, they would have told the police and everyone else who could stop the eviction process by saying that there are cameras in the apartment and that it's not a false accusation.
Nobody can pretend that the criminal invasions of my privacy are a form of love.
Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, February 4, 2017 @ 11:51 a.m.
