That is what the conglomerate has done to me every day for more than 6 years.
That is the address for the pages of search results for a search from today of the term "adult bullying."
It could be that the conglomerate doesn't realize that's what it's doing to me, because I haven't had a loss of self-esteem because of the bullying. That I know that I don't deserve what's happening to me does not mean that what's happening to me isn't bad.
The conglomerate's chronic, adult bullying is also promoting a culture of chronic, adult bullying. It seems to me that I'm the world's first target of the type of chronic, criminal voyeurism that has happened to me; it doesn't seem to me that I'll be the last, or that I'll be the last person to have my phone, email, and every electronic account hacked and malicious, self-serving interpretations of the information illicitly obtained from that hacking publicized and treated as proof that I deserve more bullying instead of as proof of more crime being committed against me.
What the conglomerate is doing to me has an effect on much more than my feelings. It has made me homeless for four of five years. It has destroyed work and work-training opportunities. It has caused me to be the target of vicious lies. It has isolated me from having a normal social life. It has caused me to be the target of vicious, and sometimes threatening, online bullying. It has caused me to be the target of relentless sexual harassment and stalking, online and in person. It is threatening my academic career.
It has caused me to be hospitalized for stress so many times since 2010 that I have lost track of how many times I've been hospitalized. It has caused me to have nearly constant suicidal thoughts, not because I think that I don't deserve to live, but because the conglomerate is deliberately, mirthfully ruining my life, and no matter what happens to me, the bullying NEVER STOPS.
I would have liked to have had children. Because of what the conglomerate has caused to happen to me, I think that I shouldn't be a mother. It would be horrible to be the child of someone who is treated the way that I am treated; the stigma of it would follow that child throughout his or her entire life.
Although the conglomerate often tries to excuse its horrific, sexual abuse of me by saying that I'm beautiful and accusing me of being a manipulator who likes having men after me all the time, the conglomerate's behavior toward me has ensured that the process of dating will be very difficult and fraught with problems, from the conglomerate hacking the phone and email and otherwise instantly invading the privacy of anyone who ever calls or emails me one time, to the burden on a relationship that the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me will be for all of my life. That's not even to mention the people who will want to try to date me or get me over to their houses so that they can illegally film me with hidden cameras in their bathrooms or bedrooms, and then sell the videos or post them online.
That there are people who are part of the conglomerate who have always treated me as if I have no right to object to their disrespectful behavior because, they think, their disrespectful behavior is not an indication of their true feelings for me does not excuse their disrespectful behavior or the things that their behavior has caused to happen to me. I also don't know why they believe, or think that I should believe, that their chronically disrespectful behavior doesn't indicate their true feelings. At no time have they ever stopped acting like how they feel about me is something that I should take more seriously than how I feel about them. They are and always were deaf to the words "YOU CAN'T TREAT ME LIKE THIS," probably because the conglomerate has shown them every day for more than 6 years that they can treat me like this and I can't stop them.
I have not treated the conglomerate the way that it has treated me, and that's not because I don't have the power to take revenge that way. I don't have that power, but I also know that nobody who has that power should do this to anyone. The way that the conglomerate has treated me is evil and criminal, and that's not what I want to be like. I have advocated against anyone being treated like this, even when it was someone who was part of the conglomerate.
Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, April 10, 2016 @ 9:28 a.m.
