Why are people who abuse me being given publicity for it?
So far, John Mayer has been interviewed by the New York Times, the New Yorker, and you. I can't print what I actually have to say about him.
It's not funny. I'm losing my housing because nobody who knows that I'm telling the truth about the hidden, illegal cameras in my apartment has told anyone. People like John Mayer are watching me in my apartment and Tweeting about it, while doing nothing to dispel the idea that I'm delusional.
I have no help from anyone in the Boston area; nobody who is supposed to help me believes me, other than perhaps the police, who don't care. I will be homeless at the end of May 2017.
Yet again, I've been victimized by voyeurism in my home, because of the conglomerate's promotion of this crime. Yet again, I've been victim-blamed for the voyeurism by the conglomerate, which has ridiculed me EVERY DAY THAT I HAVE LIVED IN MY APARTMENT, which it took two years for me to obtain after I was evicted from the last apartment for my "false" accusation of voyeurism. Yet again, I have spent a year turning off the lights and blocking the bottom of the bathroom door with a towel to change my clothes, take a shower and use the toilet.
For 7 years, I have lived in inhumane conditions in one situation after another. It couldn't be less funny.
I had to sign this agreement a few days ago:
If I hadn't signed it, I would have been evicted, had no reference, and lost my housing voucher, because I have no tangible evidence that the hidden, illegal cameras are in my apartment.
John Mayer is one of the many people who know all about this, and who couldn't care less.
For MONTHS, I have published pages asking that someone contact the property management's lawyers to tell them that the voyeurism isn't a false accusation.
When I was approved for this apartment last year, I couldn't be happy about it. I dreaded that I'd be victimized by voyeurism again. I dreaded that nobody in the Boston area would believe me. I dreaded that the conglomerate would attack me for being alive in the apartment. I dreaded that I'd make suicidal gestures in the apartment and that NOBODY WOULD CARE, and the bullying wouldn't stop. I dreaded that I'd be told to move if I confronted the property management about it. I dreaded that I would then be treated by everyone whom I asked for help in the Boston area as if it automatically had to be a delusion that the voyeurism was happening. I dreaded that every social system would fail me. I dreaded that I'd be in court again, losing another apartment, WHEN I AM THE VICTIM OF A CRIME, a crime for which I am specifically, repeatedly targeted, no matter how many people around me are also victimized.
Everything has happened exactly the way that I dreaded it would.
I have republished the address of that video for months; nobody cares about that, either.
I don't choose the addresses of videos that are published at YouTube.
I have spent the entire semester trying not to be evicted for my "false accusation" of voyeurism. I have no friends; my phone being hacked and the cameras in my apartment have made me feel that to befriend anyone would be to expose that person to the conglomerate.
I don't know why EVERYONE WHO KNOWS THAT I'M TELLING THE TRUTH AND WHO DOESN'T CARE thinks that I deserve whatever happens to me. No matter how bad what happens to me is, the response is always to recalibrate what "everyone" thinks of me to portray me as deserving it. Not only that, but they portray themselves as being my victims; like every real abuser, they think that I'M hurting THEM.
Copyright L. Kochman, April 6, 2017 @ 1:00 p.m.
